Well today is the last day of January and I am wondering where the month has gone. So much has happened this month that I dont know if I am coming or going. I went into a deep depresion and just did not see an end to a situation that I am in. After having heated arguments with WRH, I have decided that I am taking a hiatus at C. I told myself I was not going to have any negativity in my life this year and get rid of some of it and I am sticking to my guns. I know this is a lot of my problems so its time to either put up or shut up. I am so sick of being accused of things that I have not done and this last week was a real shocker. CG finally pissed me off so the heck with her, she has her G and if people want to listen to her lies then so be it. I am sick of being lied too. You can not talk to people that are stubborn and strong willed like this and her, WRH and GC are like this. MYL has really pissed me off and to tell WRH this just really like made things worse, so I have a decision to make. I can not sit here and be quiet anymore about MYL and I will not pretend that things are hunky dory anymore. So the heck with it. Let MYL and WRH have the C, I dont care anymore. C is not as important to me anymore. It has been nothing but drama and unendless stress to me, so, I just refuse to deal with C. I am tired of WRH saying I want C my way and that is not true. BH kept saying all of this was a misunderstanding and I let MYL down. Well, heck MYL let me down by not doing this FT or FTR MYL said she was going to do. And MYL said she was going to do this by the end of November. hmm...where is the R?? I got a phone call from DKH asking if I wanted to be on the FTR and I specifically told DKH, no I would rather not. Wonder what made DKH call and ask me that. How come MYL could not call and ask?? MYL too big to pick up a phone and ask? or did she put DKH up to calling me and asking. dont really care because I aint gonna put my name on it. Have had enough and wont do nothing else for the FT or C. WRH has humiliated me and made it look like I have lost my mind and am going crazy. That will be the last time WRH will do that.
well, am sure there is a lot of things I could say but I will save it for another day.
Saturday, January 31, 2009
Thursday, November 20, 2008
Her Love ( a poem by me)
Her love
Every morning when I wake up
I get a taste of her sweet loving cup
As she opens her eyes
they shine like sunshine rays.
Every morning I kiss her sweet lips
and caress her body with my fingertips
her kisses are as sweet as wine
I long to kiss them over and over again
her voice sounds like angels singing
much joy and happiness with each word she brings.
Her laughter is music to my ears
It is a song I love to hear.
Her skin is smooth as silk
The touch of her hand drives me to the brink
of surrendering my heart and love
to this sweet, loving woman that was sent from above
She is my heart and soul
she is my love and my life
With her love I am whole
she completes my life
and brightens my day
in a sweet and loving way
with her love I can do anything
and without her I am nothing
Her love brings so much joy and happiness
that I want to bring her just as much joy and happiness
Her love puts a song in my heart
her love I do not want to be apart
her love fulfills my every fantasy
it brings me so much ectasy
her love brings me so much pleasure
it can never be weighed or measured
her love will live inside of me forever
it grows stronger and will die never.
written by LC
8/12/01
Every morning when I wake up
I get a taste of her sweet loving cup
As she opens her eyes
they shine like sunshine rays.
Every morning I kiss her sweet lips
and caress her body with my fingertips
her kisses are as sweet as wine
I long to kiss them over and over again
her voice sounds like angels singing
much joy and happiness with each word she brings.
Her laughter is music to my ears
It is a song I love to hear.
Her skin is smooth as silk
The touch of her hand drives me to the brink
of surrendering my heart and love
to this sweet, loving woman that was sent from above
She is my heart and soul
she is my love and my life
With her love I am whole
she completes my life
and brightens my day
in a sweet and loving way
with her love I can do anything
and without her I am nothing
Her love brings so much joy and happiness
that I want to bring her just as much joy and happiness
Her love puts a song in my heart
her love I do not want to be apart
her love fulfills my every fantasy
it brings me so much ectasy
her love brings me so much pleasure
it can never be weighed or measured
her love will live inside of me forever
it grows stronger and will die never.
written by LC
8/12/01
Friends ( a poem by me)
Friends
Just what is a friend?
Wat does friendship mean to you?
Here is my definition of a friend
F- fun to be with, forever by your side
R-respects you for who you are, respects your wishes and opinions as you do theirs but have a right to make your own decisions and you each accept them
I-is there when you need them and even when you don’t need them
E-enjoys being with you but sometimes needs their space too
N-notices when you are down and tries to bring you up
D-dependable, determined to stay with you through thick and thin no matter what
S-shares their fears, and dreams with you without fear of being critizied
There are no limitations on friendships and for those that but limitations on friendships will not find a true friend.
Friends are there whenever you need them And it helps to know that they are even there when you don't.
Friends are there with you through thick and thin.
To share your joy and your pain or whatever comes around the bend.
Friends are there to help each other through whatever comes their way.
Friends do not turn their backs on each other
They are always there for one another
The bond between friends can not be broken
Even if there are some unkind words or deeds spoken
Freinds are there to share laughter and pain
Love, hopes, dreams, sorrow and joy
They are always there for each other
That is what friends are for.
written by LC 6/20/01
Just what is a friend?
Wat does friendship mean to you?
Here is my definition of a friend
F- fun to be with, forever by your side
R-respects you for who you are, respects your wishes and opinions as you do theirs but have a right to make your own decisions and you each accept them
I-is there when you need them and even when you don’t need them
E-enjoys being with you but sometimes needs their space too
N-notices when you are down and tries to bring you up
D-dependable, determined to stay with you through thick and thin no matter what
S-shares their fears, and dreams with you without fear of being critizied
There are no limitations on friendships and for those that but limitations on friendships will not find a true friend.
Friends are there whenever you need them And it helps to know that they are even there when you don't.
Friends are there with you through thick and thin.
To share your joy and your pain or whatever comes around the bend.
Friends are there to help each other through whatever comes their way.
Friends do not turn their backs on each other
They are always there for one another
The bond between friends can not be broken
Even if there are some unkind words or deeds spoken
Freinds are there to share laughter and pain
Love, hopes, dreams, sorrow and joy
They are always there for each other
That is what friends are for.
written by LC 6/20/01
For my mother ( a poem written by me)
For my mother
You brought 4 children into this world
giving us all the love and compassion you had
you lost one of us at an early age
what a tragic loss you had to face
but you endured and surpassed it all
You molded us to do the best
You scolded us when we were bad
tears and laughter we once shared
joy and pain, our highs and our lows
You embraced us with open arms
loving us all from the bottom of your heart
You taught us to be strong
and also how to move on
We are what we are today
because of the love and compassion you shared
now it has come time
that we must let go
and bid you farwell
never more will we see your smiling face
or hear the laughter and joy in your voice
I will miss your loving embrace and support
You were not only my mother but also a good friend
I can only hope that I can be as good as a mother as you
and teach my children the things you taught me
I love you mother and thank you for having me and loving me.
Dedicated to my mother Kathy Ratcliff who died August 19, 2001
written by LC August 15, 2002
You brought 4 children into this world
giving us all the love and compassion you had
you lost one of us at an early age
what a tragic loss you had to face
but you endured and surpassed it all
You molded us to do the best
You scolded us when we were bad
tears and laughter we once shared
joy and pain, our highs and our lows
You embraced us with open arms
loving us all from the bottom of your heart
You taught us to be strong
and also how to move on
We are what we are today
because of the love and compassion you shared
now it has come time
that we must let go
and bid you farwell
never more will we see your smiling face
or hear the laughter and joy in your voice
I will miss your loving embrace and support
You were not only my mother but also a good friend
I can only hope that I can be as good as a mother as you
and teach my children the things you taught me
I love you mother and thank you for having me and loving me.
Dedicated to my mother Kathy Ratcliff who died August 19, 2001
written by LC August 15, 2002
Dreams Gone By (poem by me)
Dreams Gone By
I sit here all alone
Thinking of the things that I’ve seen done
All the dreams that I’ve had are gone
I sit here wondering what happened to the love we had
Those endless nights of lovemaking, talking, and sharing
Making each other laugh when we felt like crying
When I had a long hard day
you walked in and smiled that sexy smile
and my troubles went away
The touch of your hand and the warmth of your kisses
Made me feel like I was special and the most luckiest woman in the world.
Now you have walked out the door
Your smiling face and your love for me won’t be there anymore
The fire is gone and we don’t know how to get it back
So now we must live our lives from each other
Trying to get rid of the hurt that was done to each other
So, I bid you farewell and hope that you will find another love
That can give you the love you always needed and wanted
As for me, I will sit here thinking of what went wrong
And learn from it so it won’t happen again
Getting stronger from this day by day
Learning how to get rid of the hurt
Learning how to maybe once again love
Thank you for letting me be a part of your life
I will cherish what time we had together
Our time is done
Now we must move on
Written by LC
November 2000
I sit here all alone
Thinking of the things that I’ve seen done
All the dreams that I’ve had are gone
I sit here wondering what happened to the love we had
Those endless nights of lovemaking, talking, and sharing
Making each other laugh when we felt like crying
When I had a long hard day
you walked in and smiled that sexy smile
and my troubles went away
The touch of your hand and the warmth of your kisses
Made me feel like I was special and the most luckiest woman in the world.
Now you have walked out the door
Your smiling face and your love for me won’t be there anymore
The fire is gone and we don’t know how to get it back
So now we must live our lives from each other
Trying to get rid of the hurt that was done to each other
So, I bid you farewell and hope that you will find another love
That can give you the love you always needed and wanted
As for me, I will sit here thinking of what went wrong
And learn from it so it won’t happen again
Getting stronger from this day by day
Learning how to get rid of the hurt
Learning how to maybe once again love
Thank you for letting me be a part of your life
I will cherish what time we had together
Our time is done
Now we must move on
Written by LC
November 2000
Done You Wrong (poem by Me)
Done You Wrong
I never meant to hurt you
Never meant to make you blue
Could never love only you
Many things we could never work through
Never was I strong enough
Things said and done
That can never be undone
I know I done you wrong.
Can’t look you in the eyes
So many cold and lonely nights
Can’t tell you how I feel
Everything feels so unreal
Feeling like I am lost and don’t belong
Where did our love go wrong?
Caused you so much pain
Had so much to loose and nothing to gain
Many tears we have cried
We can at least say we tried
Things happened so fast
That our love did not last
Our love was not strong
And I was the one that was wrong.
Written by LC
September, 2004
I never meant to hurt you
Never meant to make you blue
Could never love only you
Many things we could never work through
Never was I strong enough
Things said and done
That can never be undone
I know I done you wrong.
Can’t look you in the eyes
So many cold and lonely nights
Can’t tell you how I feel
Everything feels so unreal
Feeling like I am lost and don’t belong
Where did our love go wrong?
Caused you so much pain
Had so much to loose and nothing to gain
Many tears we have cried
We can at least say we tried
Things happened so fast
That our love did not last
Our love was not strong
And I was the one that was wrong.
Written by LC
September, 2004
Do You Remember? ( a poem by me)
Do You Remember?
Do you remember us staying up till the break of dawn?
Laughing and talking till all night long.
Do you remember all the silly fights we had
Screaming and hollering when we were mad?
Now I look back and think that they were not so bad.
Do you remember all our clothes we had were hand me downs
Spending our summers with Grandma and her taking us into town?
Do you remember the beatings we got from dad
Even if it was over something not so bad?
Do you remember us being so close
Sharing each others dreams and thoughts?
Do you remember all the hateful things dad said?
He not only messed with our lives but also our heads.
Do you remember the day you told mom what I thought was my little secret?
How that day changed everyone’s lives, she only made me feel alone and rejected.
Do you remember always being able to stand your ground with dad?
You were never afraid to say what was on your mind.
Do you remember being so strong and in control?
I was so jealous of you and wished I could be like you.
Do you remember when things changed between us?
We were once close and then one day we were miles apart.
Tell me what happened that changed things between us.
Tell me do you remember?
Written by LC
November 6, 2004
Do you remember us staying up till the break of dawn?
Laughing and talking till all night long.
Do you remember all the silly fights we had
Screaming and hollering when we were mad?
Now I look back and think that they were not so bad.
Do you remember all our clothes we had were hand me downs
Spending our summers with Grandma and her taking us into town?
Do you remember the beatings we got from dad
Even if it was over something not so bad?
Do you remember us being so close
Sharing each others dreams and thoughts?
Do you remember all the hateful things dad said?
He not only messed with our lives but also our heads.
Do you remember the day you told mom what I thought was my little secret?
How that day changed everyone’s lives, she only made me feel alone and rejected.
Do you remember always being able to stand your ground with dad?
You were never afraid to say what was on your mind.
Do you remember being so strong and in control?
I was so jealous of you and wished I could be like you.
Do you remember when things changed between us?
We were once close and then one day we were miles apart.
Tell me what happened that changed things between us.
Tell me do you remember?
Written by LC
November 6, 2004
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