end of January

Well today is the last day of January and I am wondering where the month has gone. So much has happened this month that I dont know if I am coming or going. I went into a deep depresion and just did not see an end to a situation that I am in. After having heated arguments with WRH, I have decided that I am taking a hiatus at C. I told myself I was not going to have any negativity in my life this year and get rid of some of it and I am sticking to my guns. I know this is a lot of my problems so its time to either put up or shut up. I am so sick of being accused of things that I have not done and this last week was a real shocker. CG finally pissed me off so the heck with her, she has her G and if people want to listen to her lies then so be it. I am sick of being lied too. You can not talk to people that are stubborn and strong willed like this and her, WRH and GC are like this. MYL has really pissed me off and to tell WRH this just really like made things worse, so I have a decision to make. I can not sit here and be quiet anymore about MYL and I will not pretend that things are hunky dory anymore. So the heck with it. Let MYL and WRH have the C, I dont care anymore. C is not as important to me anymore. It has been nothing but drama and unendless stress to me, so, I just refuse to deal with C. I am tired of WRH saying I want C my way and that is not true. BH kept saying all of this was a misunderstanding and I let MYL down. Well, heck MYL let me down by not doing this FT or FTR MYL said she was going to do. And MYL said she was going to do this by the end of November. hmm...where is the R?? I got a phone call from DKH asking if I wanted to be on the FTR and I specifically told DKH, no I would rather not. Wonder what made DKH call and ask me that. How come MYL could not call and ask?? MYL too big to pick up a phone and ask? or did she put DKH up to calling me and asking. dont really care because I aint gonna put my name on it. Have had enough and wont do nothing else for the FT or C. WRH has humiliated me and made it look like I have lost my mind and am going crazy. That will be the last time WRH will do that.

well, am sure there is a lot of things I could say but I will save it for another day.